Hi, thanks for the replies all... I actually am in a program right now (its an IOP) program based upon DBT techniques...so yes, I know all about that... the issue is... it doesn't seem to be helping me for this stress and feeling down...even after almost 3 months of program-type work... I'm trying to utilize what I've learned but I'm just so saddened by the financial uncertainty of the future...I also have been with someone (who is living where I go to school, so not physically with them) but they decided...last spring, and reiterated yet again that they do not want an exclusive relationship... in their words "I want to live the college life and have fun and be around other people, not just you"...so I have been hurt by this as I feel like I'm going to lose her.. I feel like I have no control over my life and things are not going to work out because I can't manage them..mostly in the financial sense...I desparately want to go back to school where I was but it is a lot more expensive, not only to go to school but to live there...and actually...(Byzantine) my parents were the ones who wanted me to go through the wilderness program (not only for legal, but also emotional issues)...they have some idea but whenever we begin to talk about sorting through my future- things get tense and I guess to some extent, yeah, you're right...they try to understand, they just don't seem to. Thanks for all of your feedback (prior and in the future) I really appreciate it...I'm having a really hard time and want nothing other than to s/h at this point...