My need to be understood has been overpowering my need to keep secrets for the past three years. I don't tell very many people the details, such as that I SI and that I was molested as a child, or what I did when things got really bad. But I do tell people when I think someone might understand, or that it might help them in some way. For a long time I was afraid to say much here on this site because I was afraid that the wrong people might read it (particularly when I'm trying to get into graduate programs). Since now I'm a graduate student in mental health counseling, I do tend to want to be the expert who knows about this stuff (since I keep finding people who have some of the same issues or who want to understand someon else who does), but I feel like having experienced it myself gives me a better and more useful perspective sometimes than just playing the role of an expert.

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