Hi, this is really the first post I have made about my relationship.. I have been scanning through the other posts and checking things out. And I have decided that I would feel better to just get it out. I have stalled for so long, because I am not one to hear people tell me to get out of a relationship or he is no good, but you guys don't seem to do that. So here I go..

I have been in a relationship with a guy for 2 years next week, and I just know he is the one I want to spend my life with. When we started dating I had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship with someone I loved very much, but the Love I have for my boyfriend is far deeper than what I ever felt with my ex.

About our relationship... Well I am 22 and he is 31, so we kinda have conflict with our ages (depending on conversation).... He moved here from a large city (we are in po dunk wyoming), so we don't do much (there is nothing to do) but sit at home all the time and watch tv. We work together, so we see each other all the time.. I really don't have friends that I hang out with and he hasn't made any friends since he moved here, so we spend ALOT of time together. We don't live together though.... I would say we get along 90% of the time... Recently I have really started to notice that he likes to mention every little thing I do wrong; if I pronounce a word differently or wrong, he is right there to correct me, if I put something away wrong, he makes sure he lets me know. And I have told him/asked him to just let the little things go sometimes and I apologize for doing it wrong. Yet when I try to correct him in any way he get aggitated by it, not mad, just annoyed. When I do something wrong, I appologize for it, ya know after 2 years I have heard him appologize to me maybe? 5 times, he doesn't appologize after a fight, when he does something wrong, nothing... Another thing that is eating away at my mind is the fact that I love to share my feelings with him, and to be honest with you, I have no idea how he feels.. I have told him that if he doesn't like to talk about it that is fine, just write me a letter, I just want to know how he feels. Today he grabbed my hand to help me stand up and he looked at me and gave me a kiss and I could actually see his Love and sincerity in his eyes, it's the first time he has ever looked at me like that, and I saw it, it made feel so good... But later on tonight we ended up getting into a argument over stupid little stuff... When we fight, he doesn't talk, half the time I really don't know why he is mad at me... I won't leave or go to sleep until it is resolved, I can't and I just won't go to bed/home mad.. It solves nothing. I will walk out the door, get to my truck and sit there for about 5 minutes and go back in, I just can't leave when we are fighting... But he will never help me solve it, he just sits there and rolls his eyes and ignores me... Sometimes I feel like it is just me trying to make things work and I can't do it by myself and I have told him that... I don't like fighting (arguing), I never have and he knows that... When we get into a argument over little things, I will cry, it hurts me when we argue, I hate it...

I Love him so much, I just don't know how to get through to him. Yes I am still young, I know there are many more men out there, but I want him in my life til the day I die, I want to grow old with him and make many more memories... I just don't know if that is what he wants, I can't tell and he won't tell me.. We have talked about moving away together, but I don't know if he is just saying that or what..

I don't know I am just Lost and Confussed in Love?

Sorry it's so long...