I agree with what everyone's said. Also, BD, you said you were jealous. Not many people are brave enough to admit it: they just become eaten up with bitterness and resentment. imho, I think you should give yourself more credit for having seen that you are feeling jealous. Also I believe you when you say you have a loving heart. That's not always what guys are after on a night out

But it's worth waiting for someone who wants that loving heart.