I live at home with a depressed father who is a problem drinker. I also live with my 18yr old autistic brother. My mother lives in another home and is also a depressed problem drinker and same with my father only creates negative energy and a negative atmosphere. I just recently got my drivers license and a car so I can get away but no matter how much time I spend away I feel the same when I get home no matter how great my day was. I see a psych every 2 months but the last time I talked to her I felt in control but Im completely loosing it and I dont see her until the 25 OF AUGUST!!!!! Im in deep distress, my wounds seem to be infected slightly but I am watching them and cleaning them carefully but if it does become a concern I can and will seek medical attention for it. Im depressed not stupid :P I still feel like not living, even though I had an incredible day. Not because I dont want to live but because i'm finidng it too hard to live and keep holding on when all life does to me is get worse. Im trying to get help because as you said Im on PC and I contacted kids help. I have had my plan B planned and prepared for a month now, but I don't think I could ever actually go through with it but the way my mind works I could snap at any second and down the pills but atm Im feeling okay enough not to do it. Thank you for caring.