I am new to this! Not to depression and addiction, but I am feeling so disconnected right now I don't get it. I am on methadone for a pill addiction I had thanks to the wonderful Dr.s that I got them from for my pain. Don't get me wrong I am not blaming them it is my fault as much as it is theirs. The point is I am feeling so dis-connected my head is so full of doubt about my ability to cope. I am scared I will lose it all and be homeless. I have no one to talk to. Don't feel like anyone close to me gets me! It's not that easy to explain to someone that has never been there. I know I have to be the one to help me but I don't feel like it just now. How do I get to feeling like it before it's to late? There is so much more to this I am just having a hard time right now just trying to write so much anxiety and every one around me does not see it I hide it well. if anyone has questions as I know I probably left out some key thoughts just ask. I need ideas!