Managing to blurt is a great way to put it.

I also wanted to add that as I advanced in my therapy, I gave myself less and less permission to remain mute.

It may sound harsh, but it all came down to me and what I would tolerate about myself and what I would not.

I told myself it was time to move forward with self-discipline, commitment and courage. I may get kicked in the teeth, but wow! like that was anything new to me.

There is a line in a Bruce Springsteen song "... and you've got to learn to live with what you can't rise above."

I so wanted to rise above.

Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't. Mainly now I do.