I lived with my parents until I was 25 and then I got married.

My mom sounds so much like yours and it was terrible living like that. I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach living there and now whenever I get that yucky feeling in my stomach now, I know something isn't right with my life and I need to change it. It has become a great signal for me that something is just off.

You are only 19 so I know you can't move out of your house and support yourself financially.

When I got married, my mom kept on calling me and telling me to leave my husband because he was controlling. I am/was on disability by that time because I couldn't hold down a job due to my BP. She always followed by saying, "You are not going to just sit around if you move back home because you are going to get a job". Even when married, she wouldn't let up on me. Why would I move back to the situation is beyond me.

I know you are "stuck" in that situation and it is a sucky way to have to live.

All I can say is that it won't last forever. You will find that someday, you won't be in that situation anymore. If you can get your parents to do some research on BP, that is a great thing to do, or next time your see your pdoc, have them go with you so your pdoc can explain exactly what you are going through.

Hold on sweetie because it won't last forever. I PROMISE!!!