I've been sleeping better the past few days but not tonight. I'm up up up. I tried paying a few of the bills that have been piling up yesterday but it is all just making me feel so swamped. I still can't concentrate or get motivated for anything.

And I finally spoke with the bank last week and they think it is unlikely that I will be able to do anything to keep my home. All my conversations previous to this were very hopeful as to at least putting off foreclosure for a few more months, but now that they have my paperwork and reviewed it that does not seem to be an option.

I don't feel like doing anything anymore. I am still very very far from being able to work again. If I lose my house I won't even have the energy to move. My hands now hurt as well as my knees and I can't even imagine packing everything I own. The idea of trying to find someplace to move to is just daunting. I can't even get up the effort to pay one bill and moving involves so much research and paperwork etc.

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-- Dave
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