Its like i d0n't even kn0w myself anym0re... T is hilighting my defects,when i just want to be fixed,or atleast managed. Spent so many years c0nvincing the world i'm fine,only to have a strange lady point out that all i'm doing is holding it together. I kn0w this sounds wr0ng,but s0me nights i wish i could suffer a major episode so i can just CRACK ya kn0w?? I deceived even myself. How sad is that. Anyway, i'll st0p whining n0w... Thanks to all of you who have been there for me,your kindness is appreciated.