Granite, you often talk about being scared of things, particularly scared that your t will think this or be angry about that, etc., but the reality has always been that she hasn't been angry at you at all. It has always been something you created in your mind because you don't feel able to trust anyone. I don't think your t has ever tried to make you angry. I think you are going to really need to look at your insecurities and fears so you don't go back into this line of thinking week after week. She's not out to get you.