Its understandable your sad your going through soo much in your life. Your not to young to be sad. I was about 11 when i started to get depressed. Im really sorry to hear your going through an awful time espcially your mother being soo sick.

I no what you mean about feeling like a charity case and it makes you feel worse but your grandparents and aunt wouldnt see u as that at all im sure.

I think it would be great if your school had a councillor. the feelings you have about been ugly and low self esteem must be hard for you to cope with. i no this isnt much help. i jus wantd you to know that there are many people on this site that will listen to you keep posting. i hope things get better soon