I can't gt close to people. i have 3 close friends but i can't let other people in i don't feel safe. i always feel like im going to get hurt.

I don't do relationships either or rather i can't. I cant get close to fellas. i would love to have a boyfriend and do all that stuff but i find it terrifying. i think that if they no me they wouldnt want me. i feel so low about myself i don't think i could handle being rejected.To get close to a man i have to have a drnk or i cant.

Even my relationship with my family is strained. i fear im pushing every1 away but they'll leave me evenntually any way.