So a month or so ago I posted to the SI forum asking if something I was doing (skin/scab-picking) was SI. A got mixed responses back. Some encouraged me to seek T, so I did. My T convinved me that I needed to tell my pdoc. That was a scary thing to do. I worte a letter and mailed/emailed it because I didn't think I would be able to bring it up during an appointment.

Last appointment with him (about a week ago) he mentioned he got my letter and called my behavior self-mutilation. That caught me a little off-guard. He went on to compare it to tattooing or ear piercing. Since I don't consider those to be "bad" things, I thought he was trying to tell me that my behavior was not "wrong". Yet...he called it self-mutiliation, so I questioned him about that. Turns out he thinks tattooing and ear piercing to be "harmful" behaviors. I left it at that since I didn't want to get into a moral debate with him.

Anyways, concerning my behavior...he mentioned that there was a medication to stop such behaviors. Not wanting more meds, I stopped him right there and said "NO". Now I wish I would have let him talk long enough to say what that med was, so I could look it up on my own.

Anyone have any idea what it could have been?

I'm sure it will come up again next month, as when I said no, he said if the behavior continues next time he'll need to prescribe it. So far the behavior has not stopped. I'm wondering if I should have allowed the prescription for the med last time, as when he saw me I only had/was down to 3 sores...and now I am up to 11 again. The number fluctuates a lot depending how much I pick. I'm starting to think that I do need it to stop. I thought T would help, but it hasn't yet (though it's only been a month, so it could be too early to tell yet).

Argh! So frustrating.