Yesterday went ok. Today... Freaking horrible. I have cried most of the day. Just can't keep it together. All I can thinking my head over and over is I don't want to be hear. My boyfriend had to go out out town today so he made sure I was setup wit some sand paper and we got me some paint to refinished an old side table I have here. It's actually a really good table that will look awesome in a nice red, old farmhouse. Hopefully now I find the actually gumption to get it out side and sand it. And not sit inside and cry.