Danii, I share a lot of the same feelings as you do toward this kind of issue... It's very hard to deal with. My last boyfriend was very abusive so I havent been able to trust anyone in that way sense, and when I did try I just got rejected. and as far as friendships go, I am even worse about trusting people. It is so hard, I know. Try to stay strong and keep going. Also, it is often better to have few true friends then be popular but have fake friends. Keep fighting and don't ever give up, okay? There are people out there who will really care about you and love you, you just have to find them - and sometimes they'll come to you. It just takes time, and effort and don't isolate yourself too much because then the opperunity could slip right by you. Good luck.