I'd like to add that I like how I am, I like being an introvert (like I've said many times, me being quiet and reserved isn't the problem. The shyness and asocialness is). Like I've never cared to have tons of friends, and having a boyfriend has always been the least of my problems. Yes, I'd like to have that stuff, but improving myself is far more important to me. I wish to be happy with myself. I won't be happy with anyone or anything until I do so.

You know, though, most times I feel like I don't even want anything. I don't care if I never resolve the things I dislike about myself, I don't care if I never get my degree, I don't care if I die alone. I don't want anything at all and it feels like I am only pushing forward with thoughts of bettering my life because it is what I used to want and it is what everyone else wants. But I'm sure this is my depression thinking for me...