I have that huge fear of ending up like my parents over my head as well. I see my mother in me everyday and I hate it. I know how you feel, it's almost stuck there.

If you are feeling this sad, then something has to be done, so it doesn't get to the point that it did for your dad. Allow yourself to accept the pain, instead of trying to avoid it, and numb it.

How old are you?

Don't let those crappy little peers push you around. You know who you are, they don't.

I hope you feel better, keep posting and let us know how you feel alright.