My babies!!, well at least one of them has been crying for an hour straight this morning, he won't shut up! I have no idea what his problem is. I'm so burned out.

I'm a failure when it comes to being a mother. I'm ignoring them and have been for a few days. They are clinging to me right now. I don't want them near me.

I hate who I have become.

I'm a huge failure, and they deserve a better mother.

I'm losing it, I'm becoming my mother, uncaring, selfish, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....he won't stop screaming!

I have to go!, I don't know what to do anymore. I need to smoke before I flip out. I can't handle this anymore, I can't handle this anymore, I can't handle this anymore.....the screaming will never stop!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since we've lived here in this hell hole they have not slept right, and all they do is scream and cry. I hate this place, I hate this place!!....



What can I do?

I need help with them, I'm sick of doing it all my myself!