thank you for that info...
and i will try the valerian.
right now i am trying to just distract myself from the intrusive thoughts about the abuse i suffered, and i still sleep with my knife, but ive buried myself in my studies and instead of listening to music (reminds and triggers flashbacks) i now listen only to books on CD.
its really helping... a little.
it will be some time til i can trust a doctor , by then maybe the "PTSD" symptoms will be gone....