I have always had problems with sexual intimacy (unless drunk), but other than that I was really affectionate, loved hand holding - even stroking my pets.

Now I can only bear the touch of my kids, I even struggle to stroke my pets and when I do I just feel numb.

My T suggests holding my hand or touching me gently on the shoulder, but I panic at the mere thought of it.

I have no idea why I am like this - yes I have past issues to work through, but I do not know what has changed to make even pet stroking difficult for me.

SD