because now that i know that i am borderline
it explains why i have been the way i have been and the way i have acted etc for all of these past years when i havent really given much of it a tremendous amount of thought about it before. i just thought i was a weirdo in the moment and just severely depressed. and then psychs started probing around and poking about and asking me questions about my personal life,,, relationships, background etc.

i am now coining the term "relationsh!ts" btw lol

my main concern is that because now ive been diagnosed i have now lost all hope that i am ever going to have a stable relationship ever because im concious of my ways and think that no-one is ever going to accept me for what i am and be able to tolerate my flaws or quirks or whatever it is they are.

im doomed