The way i feel, and i am sure its related to bipolar.

Everyone's searching for something in life that makes everything make sense, why we're here, whats going to make us happy.
I feel like when i'm up i do everything in my power to make life brilliant, always jumping from one thing to the next, maybe i want to work really hard, or party all the time, or buy everything to make myself happy, talk to everyone, make new friends. Then i come down, and it feels like, none of that makes me happy, and thats all there is to life, so whats the point anymore.
I've got an amount of time on this planet and i've wasted so much of it.
I feel like i yearn for something MORE, just anything more that what i've got.
'i go up, i come down, and i'm emptier inside, tell me what is this thing, that i feel like i'm missing, and why cant i let it go?"