Worth a laugh if nothing else. When I am manic the voices hear can be either more of the commentary type, or the can also be commentary cheerleaders, cheering me on. Not all the time tho, because sometimes the can just be talking amongst them selves.

When depressed tho they become the demeaning, mean, and loud monsters. As I slip to deppresion they are right there by my side, continuously telling me over and over that I don't want to be here. It's so noisy, when I say no I do want to be here, they reply, no, no you don't!

I know I am not stable and I know the voices are really coming from me, but why can they not b stable haha, Why must they too have Bipolar. Or at least give me a few days to settle into the depression before showing up. Is this me fighting the sui? I couldn't follow through with that, I had made attempts when I was younger, but I have children now and it isn't an opinion for me, I am their only parent. Feels like the voices are always testing me, pushing to see if they can get my unwavering stance on sui to change. Of course I do "feel" suicidal when I am depressed, but i won't allow myself to give it thought o power. I wish I could find a way to get the voices back off. I am already taking meds for this it's not that helpful.

It is annoying listening to this "you don't want to be here" 24-7. I wish it would stop.