arcangle
i can identify when you say "The closer it gets to the surface, the more severe the anxiety becomes. It seems like it's something that would shatter me into thousands of pieces."

i frequently felt that way, that i would shatter and never be able to piece myself back together again. thank you for bringing that up. i had forgotten that. i havent felt that way in a long time. helps me to see how far i have come. thanks.