Yes, I think a break is the exact thing I need for this problem. I haven't had a real break since they were born, just when I go to classes, that's it.

I don't have anybody that is trustworthy to babysit for me accept daddy. He's getting his two week vacation soon, and that will be when I get my break, and I'm going to go all out and have me some fun. Just one day and I will be happy.

Then daddy can take them somewhere like Chuck E Cheese or something......lol, I'd love to see him take them somewhere by himself, that would be a sight I'd never forget. Then maybe he would realize how difficult it is to take them both somewhere.

Thanks all for replying and for the advice. Of course I feel like a dummy for being upset, they're being little angels now that daddy's home.

I love them sooo much, and I know because their so young that their unable to understand my need for a break. So I have to try to hold the frustration in, till I'm alone, or write it down in a journal or something. It's not their fault their fireballs full of crazy energy.....lol.

I'm so relieved many moms out there understand. Just like when they escaped, I thought the neighbor lady who found them would tell me off for being so neglectful, but instead she was very understanding. Mom's are wonderful, they make the world go round. Men usually signify strength, no offense to men, but I think women are much stronger in other ways.

Thanks so much, I'm much better now.........I'm so glad I have all of you.