I don't know why I'm so worried about what they will think, and that I will disappoint them. Why should I care about disappointing them? Why can't I feel like I'm right?
Last night I started my new position on the night crew at my job (home improvement store) How could I have been so naive to actually think that these guys wouldn't bother me. I'm one of two girls working overnight. I was alone for 2 minutes, and it's like they have "stupid girl is alone radar." One guy told me he'd like to find out if I am a good kisser. What the hell? I'm not attention seeking, I don't flirt, I dress appropriately. I guess my problem is that I'm too nice. I should just be a bit**. But, why should I have to change my personality? I already told one of the managers that I don't feel comfortable, and it's not going to work out. I'm going back to work tonight, but will hopefully this is the last night. I want to go back to my original job. I'm worried that they will be mad. Why do I feel this way? I should be looking out for myself. Why do I have to feel like I failed them? And now I will have my other co-workers saying, "I told you so." I don't want to quit altogether because there are a lot of people I do actually like to work with. I'm just trying to find the position that I best fit in. Thanks for listening. Needed to get it out. I'm still a little nervous about telling the bosses I changed my mind. They'll probably think I'm just a wishy washy dumb girl. Oh, well.