So in an attempt to figure out how to stay calm in certain situations, my T suggested the usual deep breathing, visualize, meditate etc. The problem is, I suck at it.
Deep Breathing - I only remember to do this when I'm calm. And yes that's good because I get calmer than the original calm, I'm also attempting to slow down my pace in life. Rather than rushing/running everywhere, I leave earlier (if I can- although I absolutely hate hate hate being late) and I walk slower (which I'm finding peaceful). But when I'm in anxiety/panic mode, how do you remember to cue the deep breathing?
Visualize - Ok, I might sound crazy here, but do you actually see something behind your eyes? I feel sort of defective because all I get is blackness with light blotches. If I visualize a beach, am I suppose to see a beach, or just be thinking about it
Meditating - Either I get distracted by things I need to deal with every 2 minutes or I fall asleep. And then if I do a guided meditation it tells me to visualize and I get distracted by my seemingly inability to visualize.

In case you didn't get all of that, I'm a coping skills disaster. I only see T every month or so (it's free through my college so it's not all that extensive) and sometimes when I actually get in I forget all of my issues so it's not all that productive. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to be calm, or how to get better at any of these skills?