Desirae -

Being a mother is the hardest job in the world.

You can't always be the perfect mother. I am sure you are not becoming your mother. It's probably just one of your deep-seated fears, because of what you went through.

Some churches offer mother's day out programs. I think they provide daycare, and allow the mothers to socialize with each other. Bigger churches are more likely to have something like this. I forget the size of the town or city in which you live.

Please feel free to PM me anytime.

Hope this note finds you feeling better.

Hugs and love,

EJ