I had a great deal of anxiety today, just dealing with a normal situation that most people wouldn't think twice about. When I drove home, I had the sudden, strong urge to SI...

After writing it out a bit, I see a lot of self-loathing coming out... disgust at my personal weakness. Am I so angry at myself that I feel the need to cut? I know there've been... so many different reasons for SI in my life. Here is one more, I guess.

... I haven't done it, yet. Been pretty damn good about not giving in... but I still... *cough*

I'm trying not to think about it.