Oh man do I know that place. I didn't think I knew anyone with life happenings such as mine. One pile of poo falls and as you are clearing your way duck quick cause here comes another. I agree, I have not cried or mourned those close repeated traumas and losses. You pick up and move on. Only now for me it seems my self decided to go AWOL and will not pick up and carry on any longer. Has her own agenda I suspect. You are strong, your a mystery, so much I don't know, and you are a survivor, a liver, a person who made the energizer bunny. Okay for bad times. Crap do they happen. Ain't no fair.