I went through a very low point where I was very sad at the thought that no one really knows me nor will they ever really know me - even the people I love and who love me - they don’t know me they just think they do.

No one knows about the world within. I have mentioned a few things to someone close, like a kind of test, but I only succeeded in frightening them so I drew back and have never tried to get anyone else to understand except for on forums like this one. So yes it does feel like I’m living a lie.