Silver, I really feel for you, being exposed to emotional abuse from your father. I know it's not going to help if I tell you that he clearly doesn't understand what you've been going through. So instead, I thought I'd tell you about something that might give you some hope in such a trying time: one of my closest friends who I met at uni dropped out of Uni. She had a lot of emotional problems, and was really suffering. Anyway, she returned to study some years later, and now has a managerial position. In other words, there's nothing wrong with taking time off to take care of your emotional needs. It doesn't mean that things won't work out in the long run. I hope her story provides some reassurance. Hang in there.