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It is always good when one finds a way....>>>>>
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It sure is Hunny. seems for the longest time I didn't have ANY awareness what was happening with me.... I'd just feel....frightenly adrift... disoriented.
I've hated this about myself, for such a long time
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It is possible to put them off coming out at certain times with positive thoughts and maybe distractions. It took some time but I have a lot of control now and this is a part of it.
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Really Korin? there can come a time when that "jolt" doesn't happen at all?(or the feeling of being sucked into a deep black hole) that would be so nice, if that is true. this is the first time I had awareness like this-- the body and how it felt, the room I was in... and yet...I'm not sure, I hope I didn't make any dumb mistakes that I - in cognizant mode-- would never make
it's so frustrating, there are times I can be creative-- I sew, and do other crafty things that can turn out so cool..... and then....
*blip*
it's gone
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I knew I could sew yesterday or create something really original-- but then.... I haven't a clue how to do such things
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Does this happen with everyone?... if it does, how do other people deal with this?
goings on like this is partly what I think keeps me isolated and friendless.... I hate this about myself....
when growing up, elders all around me were unstable, had to count on self for protection and care-- makes me upset to think I AM NOT what I hoped/want to be-- stable, reliable.
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I think it's great that you are able to post about this - I think you have a lot of courage!
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Thank you Butterflies Are Free.
i think scared -is more the word though
thank you all,
fins