Thanks guys..

Well apparently the only way to get any help in this city when your pdoc is on vacation is to be admiitted. So I said no thanks because there is no one to watch my children right now. So I will suffer and continue to spiral until aug 2. Awesome !!! Well for today depressed irritable agitated with racing thoughts and only one hallucination. Fabulous.

I was told the on call pdoc would see me at the hospital, then told she wouldn't see me. Then told that er doctors won't touch my meds then told to see my gp who is bad with these meds. Then tOld that because I'm so sensitive my gp probably can't help. Then told if I come in like this they will keep me. Ugggh I it were actually and option I'd go.