to help yourself the first thing is to admit yourself to hospital. its obv needed if people are noticing your acting oldly then its a deffinant that u are.

You seem to know yourself the real answer to your question about helping yourself. take that step because if you dont help yourself no1 else will help you. i no you feel you need to be forced or for some1 to admit you to hospital but you can ask for help be brave.

Your father sounds really concerned and worried about you now. maybe if you show him that post maybe he'll ring the doc for you to get you admitted