i wnt therapy and i need therapy. i will do it but im terrified of tlkn about things. im used to it. i find it easy here because im not sayn it out loud. the thoughts of actually saying it is scary.

Im afraid that the therapist will be patronising but then i do take things the wrong way some times. i no even when i do want to tlk i cnt my mind goes blank. i can nvr find the right words to convey how i feel and i always feel like im not emphasing how bad i feel when i speak.

I usually advoid docs because i dnt like the way they look at me when i do speak bout things so i just find it too hard. some times i do be mad with myself when i come out thinking why did i say this or that. i see myself as a whinger or taken up someones time that someone else could use. i nvr see my problems as important as someone elses. its stupid i no jus need to post