Hey everyone ..

Today as been downright crazy. I didnt sleep well at all last nite, Maybe a total of 4 hours between all my waking up. I started cleaning and I just kept on cleaning I have been unable to sit still at all today ... im sitting here fighting the urge to get up and tear into something else to clean or organize .. which OK sounds " Great" super clean house and organized sock drawers ..But heres my problem I have severe Fibromayagia and I know I'm going to pay for over doing it today. somedays just a trip to the grocery store for eggs bread and milk is too much for me and im bed bound for a day or more.

I was diagnosed with Bi Polar I within the last 6 months or so altho looking at my life I have been Bi Polar all my life. Due to my chronic pain I seldom can do alot in a day or I wind up pretty much being bed bound for days ..Today the amount of stuff I have done has me concerned .. All day long I have been in Horrible pain yet I kept right on going My pain level is about a 8-9... So im "assuming" its the mania kicking in.

My current medications are Seraquel 400mg at nite and Xanax 1mg twice a day and Halcion.5mg at nite .. I see my Therapist on the 28th .. I'm just sitting here worried and concerned about how im going to feel tomorrow .. I know being worried to death over it now isnt going to help me ,,but for whatever reason today my Brain has gone back to its racing a million miles an hour. Im pretty certain I'm rambling like a fool right about now .. if only I could SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW down and i damn sure dont want to increase my Seraquel AGAIN,,I'm just about over the weight gain ... Terrible side effect !

Thanks for reading my rambling racing mess hope it makes sense .

Wishing you all some peace