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Originally Posted by Philmac
I'm sure that childhood trauma is the cause of many issues like this, but not mine. My childhood was not perfect by anyone's standards, but I was never abused or traumatized. I was never touched by anyone and I was never brainwashed into thinking sex is bad.
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I relate so much to your statement, "I was never touched by anyone."
I was raised by a mother who taught me that hugs were unnecessary. Also, my mother was cold and was not interested in helping me develop as a person, e.g., she did not help me with problems and does not see my lack of dating as a problem. As an adult, I do not enjoy / understand dating and avoid it at all costs. I do have a need for sex but intimacy feels uncomfortable and I'm not good at it.
Based on my experience, enjoying intimacy is taught. If your parents never touched you, that can be classified as neglect. Personally, I have not found a cure. It seems like a part of me that should be there is missing; others have suggested that I am underdeveloped in that area. All I can say is that my life alone is very unhappy and lonely.
You are a lot younger than I am. Here's my suggestion: Try getting a few massages. And, try taking massage lessons and giving massages to others. Hopefully, they will create an interest in human touch as you begin to relax and enjoy the experiences. Speak to others about your feelings. The combination of massage and feeling talk is an introduction to intimacy.
I am so sorry to hear of another person who was not taught intimacy. Trust the advice in this thread - intimacy is an important part of life that makes life enjoyable. Don't wait. Push yourself to learn about intimacy now. There is a lot to learn. I wish you the best.