Gentle hugs to you danii24,

I can relate. I have a very difficult time trusting enough for complete honesty and comfort. Is there such a thing? I don't know.

I keep almost everyone a safe distance away. Some are closer than others, of course. A very small amount of people in this world (other than members here, I suppose) know me. My daughters know me on a different level than my bf, and my T knows me pretty well. I doubt that any of them know all of my sides.

I'm kind of like a chameleon. Not for the thrill of being different. Rather, to blend in, and not attract attention to myself. Not that I enjoy being by myself. I don't ~ I hate it & avoid it at all costs!

When people ask me Q's, I have a hard time answering them. It feels as though the Q's are all too complicated to answer...maybe I should just lie and say that life is pretty good. Instead, I answer Q's with hesitation and vagueness.

Maybe this tendency goes along with BPD? I don't know.