I completely can relate to how you are feeling. My only really close friend was my ex and I no longer keep in touch with him. Sometimes I feel so alone my heart aches. I had to hug myself once just to feel that someone cared, even if it was myself. Now that's pretty sad. I have found much comfort posting here because I have found others who feel the same and another great thing is I can post everything that is in my heart without hesitation. It has helped me release a little of my pain.

btw, you mentioned you are not getting a lot of sleep, that can really be wearing on your emotions. I hope you can get a good night's sleep soon. Pls take care of yourself.