Anne, I live with suicidal thoughts in the back of my mind all the time. I've spent my entire life suffering...who wouldn't want an end to it? I understand what you mean about having plans, but no plan to follow through on them. It's an escape fantasy daydream I engage in, probably more often than I should. Sometimes I have a fleeting impulse to act on it. And I am not depressed! They're with me stable, hypomanic and manic, too! I think it has become one of those thoughts that has created a negative rut that responds to CBT techniques. I always have to keep fighting with my little bag of coping skills, just like so many other negative thoughts. Yes, you can hold off for two months. After all, we've been "holding off" for years, haven't we?