Dear avoice, I had hard time understanding what you are saying. I heard "I am killing myself, and I am fine with with it. No one can stop me, and I don't want their help." And you didn't want to talk about what could have triggered you, so what did you want?

And then I realized that this most likely is "goodbye cruel world".

If so, I am so, so very sorry! It's such a waste. I only hope that you realize you don't want to die, before it is irreversible.

This lie you are dying for is so pointless. I wish more people would realize sooner that so many thoughts enslaving us are not true, and worse than that, they do not even come from us. They are but mind infections, deserving no more loyalty from us than a toe fungus.