Sorry this isn't a question, it's just me needing to vent for a bit...

I have made it to 23 without ever being in a relationship....and let me tell you it sucks! I know part of the reason is because I am not very trusting with my heart. And that comes from, I believe, not having a very good relationship with my father, he is the one man I should have been able to trust my whole life but have never been able to. I see a few friends around me in bad relationships and I am glad at those moments that I am single. But for the most part....most of my friends are in relationships and extremely happy. My closest friends are in happy, stable relationships, and some of them are even starting families. I cannot talk to them about how lonely I am. Don't get me wrong I am extremely happy for them. It just hurts to know I've never felt the way they do and I'm starting to wonder if I ever will. The couple of times I even let me friends "set me up" I ended up getting hurt. In one of these instances a friend of mine was talking to me and this guy she wanted to hook me up with about each other. He finally added me on Facebook one day and I decided to accept his friend request and message him...but I never heard back from him and he seemed to overlook me whenever I would see him out in public. The other time I actually spoke with the guy and we set up a time and place to meet. However, when the day came I was left sitting at the meet-up place alone, he never showed. You know, as good as "Happily every after" sounds I'm beginning to believe that it only exists in fairytales and Disney movies. For now I would settle for a "Happily right now." People tell me that one day it will happen for me, but I just don't know.

Sorry, I know I'm rambling. I just needed to vent and I figured this would be the safest place to do it.