I understand.... for while the CHAOS was unhealthy and very stressful - We knew how to handle that, for we live with in it every day - it is the Rational Side of us (our mind) that is the Scary side, for we do not know how to function within its realm.
I have been there - done that......................... many times over. I am now trying to let it be my friend.
LoVe,
Rhapsody -