I get an odd feeling sometimes. Best I can describe it is "outside looking in". My friends all hang out with each other, but I am not there most of the time. I'm at home alone and comfortable. It's like at church... I was a leader... considered in the inner circle. But even there I felt outside looking in and my role was supportive and work-oriented. People hung out with each other... wanted to be with each other. All I wanted was to hide behind what I was doing or be alone... except on rare occasions where that special moment happened and I found myself sharing personally with people after meetings. There are precious few of those. I want to know how to do that... how to incorporate people into my world... my bubble. My personal space? I'm not sure what I'm describing, but there's a connection deficiency of some sort. I can't put my finger on it... I wish I could scratch that damn itch. It's just out of my reach. Maybe it's more of a "comfort zone" thing with me. It's so stressful to connect that I avoid inviting people into my personal space. I dunno. I wish I knew. Anyone relate?