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Jul 26, 2011, 10:51 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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I think that you should find a different AA meeting to attend and get yourself there, at least once a week if not more.
I don't know where you're located but I do know that AA meetings can be found almost anywhere and there are a lot of different meetings too.
I'm not intending to sound harsh, but I recently started going to OA about a month ago and it has been a place where I can go and not only get out what I need to, but I can be real honest with myself there and it helps me be accountable for my actions and behaviors. To read that you are choosing not to go to meetings because you feel drawn to meetings just to see her tells me that maybe you aren't working the steps as well as you could be.
Do you have a Sponsor? If not, look into getting one. If this person you are attached to was your Sponsor, go to some different groups and find someone else that you would be interested in working with and see if they'll sponsor you.
Remember, you've also go us here at PC you can talk with as well. We're here for you. But there's not much we can do if you're deciding to avoid working the program and doing the steps because of this one person. I know it's difficult, but you are giving your power and health away to this person and that's not going to help you to become a healthier person....it's only going to keep you sick.
Find a meeting......work the steps....they work, but only if you work them first!!
Take care 
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