It is 1:30 am and I had been in bed since 11pm and still not sleeping. Still having suicidal thoughts and wanting to talk to someone so I called the national suicide hotline. There is an automated menu -- You have called the .... press one if ..... Stay on the line to be routed to a crisis line near you... I hung up. If I wanted to talk to someone near me I would have called them. My reason for calling the national hotline was so I wouldn't have to call the crisis line here that is based in the hospital I just got out of. That doesn't seem to be an option any more.