I do realize how scary some of these can be, as I myself have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, DID, manic depression, as well as anxiety disorder ADD and Bipolar. Some of these I do not believe myself but over all I have paranoia, I have moments where I do very dangerous things and moments where I am over cautious to extremes, I have blackouts and I have severe mood swings along with hallucinations and dillusions. I have been in and out of therapy for 10 years and have finally over time come to learn to live with and accept my categories. These categories can be looked at in one or two ways, you hate yourself for it or you work to live with it and work to deal with it and face it head on. Sure when I'm under high ammounts of stress I hallucinate still. I was at one point on 1,350 mg of Lithium and 75mg of seroquil along with tranquelizers, mood stabalizers, antipsychotics, valium, you name it I've been on it and at the age of 15 I was taking 32 pills a day for my moods. As someone who is now 24 years old and on absolutely NO meds at all, happy with myself, and for the first time in my life I don't feel as if I am the only one carrying this weight on my shoulders. I have realized that whether or not people admit to it, no one is perfect and everyone has something "wrong" with them. That being said, if everyone has something wrong with them mentally in some way shape or form, then it's not so strange after all and is in turn normal. You can agree or disagree. The way I look at it when posting this thread is that a good outlook on life sometimes is not so bad and to spread that good outlook is even better. A lot of these "disorders" we will live with for the rest of our life. Alot of us will never be 100% "healed" of these "disorders" and for that reason I believe we should look at it differently as well as the psychiatric field in general.

I can't tell you how many times a therapist of mine has said they themselves have bipolar or have been through depression, borderline, and even one of my therapists said she wished she had Dissasociative Identity Disorder. Something you would think no one, especially a therapist would want. She specialized in DID and still wished to have DID.

Look at the illegal drugs of the world today as well. Ecstacy as well as LSD, Peyote and Mushrooms have all been used to study the psychological field. These studies have shown a lot of good results from such hallucinogenics but the lack of control the government has on these drugs have forced them to make it illegal. These "drugs" that were mostly created by doctors and psychiatrists. These drugs have a very strong similarity to the "symptoms" that I have experienced my entire life with the schizophrenia. The hallucinations, the ups and downs with my mood, the paranoia even, hearing feeling and sensing things, it's strange because in a stressful point of my life, where things were out of hand and I had lost control of my mind and was seeing things everywhere and going berzerk, I experimented with these things for the first time and responsibly and the end result was nothing I had expected. Years ago I tried these and I didn't see too many things different than if I were having a schizo melt down, I heard pretty much the same things and my state of mind was not altered so much at all. Things still seemed rather normal for me. The only difference was that for a short time during those dark days my spirit was lifted a little. My mood was lighter and I smiled and laughed non stop.

I wont touch Ecstacy, it's dirty dangerous and I want nothing to do with it. The only thing I will possibly try again in the future would be LSD or Mushrooms, but I don't think I want to do them without supervision. I think they should bring back that method of treatment for those who need it. Some people I do believe did have psychotic breakdowns after using these drugs but if you had never experienced the hallucinations that I have, or felt the way I have... Just the schizophrenia would drive someone crazy if never experiencing something similar before. But for someone who lives the life LSD creates but without the ups LSD gives, I do wish they would legalize it for therapists and psychiatrists to use on willing patients again like they used to. I hope this doesn't get deleted. Let me say this... My dad is a crack head and always has been, I don't agree with illegal drugs and I hate them, I also don't care for legal pills. Narcotics I never take. I hate taking Tylenol even. Rather than put us on countless pills every day why not teach us to accept and live with our "disorder" and teach us to live on as little chemical dependency as we possibly can? Again these are just my opinions, I'm not trying to step on anyones toes.