Wow, that was an interesting read. I have to applaud your candor. You seem to like and hate yourself in equal turn or at least that was I got from the post. I'm sorry you had such a bad upbringing. What your parents did to you was inexcusable. The lying and stealing you do is also inexcusable, but that's neither here nor there. You know it's wrong, but you don't really seem too bent out of shape about doing it. And, apparently, the only thing keeping you from doing anything worse is to keep yourself out of prison. Well, at least that's something.

What are you feeling here when you write this?

I have to ask though, what are the reasons that brought you here to PC and inspired you to write such an illuminating and, quite frankly, disturbing post about yourself?
Are you looking for a way to fill this void...this loneliness left by the friend you thought was exactly like you? Or were you just curious about the reaction you might garner?

I feel reactions are a key to antisocials, actually. One time a kid was telling me how he had just stole someones bike. I proceeded (in my younger days...) to tell him how he was wrong, shouldn't have stolen the bike, cuz now how is that person gonna get home, ect.. and his response was...."I couldn't wait to see their reaction".

It may sound bad, but it's not as bad as it looks, leeme splain lol. Deadmu5(? soory, it won't let me see your user name, musta been on other page) but he talked about the power behind knowing you can influence someone. Well, what that tells me, cuz I'm crazy I guess, is that somewhere in his 'childhood' (sorry for talking indirectly about you o0 he felt that he had no impact whatsoever on his parents. So now as an adult, getting a reaction outta somebody would be significant. There's my story and I'm stickin to it.

No offense, but how is it even possible for you to have a legitimate friendship without compassion, empathy, and trust?

Exactly...would that make life kinda hard o0; I feel this is a good point...are you angry here though? If one has not expereinced compassion, empathy, and trust-only the opposite-how can one recognize the difference, let alone show it to others? I'm asking to challenge standard thinking on antisocials. There's more to them then people give credit for. They're are not bad people who do bad things, they are hurting people who have anger and are acting on it.

You say at the end of your post that "you don't care about anyone", and yet you seem to sort of mourn the perceived loss of this friend and you seem to care at least a little bit about your mother.

Is it not CRAZY that he cares about his mom? How can one show care when never shown, and.....his mom was so neglectful! Kicking him out into the woods? I feel maybe you had something abusive happen to you as well and it may be triggering you; most of the time that is how peeps overlook messed up **** as "the norm.'

Of course this may be part of this possessive love you spoke of. They have their uses to you and so you care about them in the limited way you can.

I can imagine true loss would feel harsh. Like end life now harsh;

Finding out this friend of yours actually did "care"...did this somehow make him less useful to you?